Matt

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 06:07:17 GMT

you may never understand this. and i don't ever want you to understand if you don't. But i now fully know the meaning of being psychotic. crazy. insane.

i'll never go there again. but i wouldn't trade this night or this experience for the world. and that's a promise.

THE END.

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 16:42:23 GMT

i am quitting you cuz you suck and don't entertain me anymore. reading other people's woes brings me oh-so-much joy since i'm going to hell and all. TOOLS.
peace

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 15:08:04 GMT

my friends list isn't updating anymore. stupid, glitched journal-thingy.

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 05:25:52 GMT

something felt wierd about the night. i've got no idea what it was that was so wierd, but something definately was a bit off. i think it's cuz i spent the night crammed in my room making sure i kept up with my work while there was a lot going on in the hallway. i wanted to join in since i'm a social parasite and all. i wanna party on Saturday. i wanna get sloshed and forget the night and wake up dirty and sore not quite knowing for sure what happened. Now THAT'S a good time.

i'm making money! :)
and a big thanks to Kerri for helping me out with that process. i owe ya.

On another note, i fucked up my shoulder.... again. Ever since i ripped the deltoid muscle at SNOWJAM! from a stupid-ass crowd surfer who was gonna fall on my friends but me, being the heroic and selfless guy i am (hahaha) pushed the person in the other direction which ripped my muscle in the process, it's been so easy to agitate/mess up. So yes, once again it happened today. Hopefully i can just sleep it off and it'll all be good.

It's nice being back at UMD.

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 15:36:58 GMT

Hahahaha. i got jealous. And as my punishment i will let myself stew in my own juices. eat THAT! me.

On another note, we only brought Lucifron down to 53% before the wipe. 4 hours and it was so much fun. woo.
Ragnaros goes down next time.

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 00:57:27 GMT

So it's Jon's 19th birthday today, but he's in Iraq so i have no way of wishing him a good one. Kinda sad, but that's life. He'll be back eventually and i'll be able to do it then, heh. Since i'm waiting for a shower cuz i'm waiting for dinner first, i figured i'd touch my well-neglected LJ thingy-ma-bob. i'm quite exhausted from work, switching from working 6-10am and 3-7pm can really fuck up a person's sleep schedule. But this is my last week so things will be a-ok soon enough.

i took Amanda out to the Cheesecake Factory Saturday as my 6-month-do-a-special-thing gift. it was very nice and i was quite happy that she liked it. After that she took me out to the Drive-in to see The Skeleton Key and 40-year-old Virgin as her part of the 6-month date-gift-thingy. It was a fantastic night.

Now i'm here, and dinner is calling me. So i'm going to neglect this journal more. Good deal? of course. bye.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 16:22:43 GMT

HOORAY FOR THESE SURVEY-ESQUE THINGS!

Firsts and Lasts;;

FIRSTS--->

First best friend: This kid Cameron who lived across the street from my until i was 9-10ish.
First crush: Tara Mirara in 2nd grade before she stayed back. She was my SRA buddy!
First car: 1993 Ford Explorer
First kiss: my old childhood friend, Lauren Sullivan. i wonder what she's up to these days...
First screen name: gMocow
First funeral: Nana
First album: Goo Goo Dolls - Dizzy Up The Girl
First pets: 2 dogs and a bird
First piercing/tattoo: tribal phoenix on my left shoulderblade
First big trip: Drove to Florida when i was a youngin'
First time skiing: 4 years ago with Rebekah and Shaun. i sucked hardcore and i'll never go again.
First concert: RiverRave 2k1!!! wooo.
First alcoholic drink: Captains and coke when i was 14. puke everywhere
First ticket violation: $135 speeding ticket...
First job: Busboy at a breakfast resteraunt.
First myspace friend: that dude who forces himself on everyone. Tom, i think?

LASTS---->

Last car ride: Yesterday coming from Emerald Square Mall.
Last kiss: yesterday, in Sears.
Last time you cried: over 5 years ago. i broke that day and can't cry anymore.
Last movie watched: The Believer
Last food you ate: Frosted Mini Wheats
Last love: Brett's little sister. don't tell Amanda ;P
Last item bought: gasoline.
Last annoyance: my siblings being lazy-ass, ungrateful slobs
Last time wanting to die: WHEN I GOT AN A- ON MY TEST!! OH GOD!
Last shirt worn: bright orange Tub Ring shirt
Last alcoholic drink: vodka+energy drink! yum
Last concert: Indigo Girls (front row!)
Last phone call: Nina about 5 minutes ago
Last time at the mall: yesterday if you didn't get that from the previous questions.

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 01:51:48 GMT

i was tagged so here it is. but i'm not tagging anyone else. so there!

Five things I can't live without: (in no particular order)
1. Socialization
2. Food
3. Music
4. WoW
5. Sarcasm

Five foods/beverages that I love:
1. ice cream
2. pizza
3. chicken
4. gatorade
5. frozen bahama mama

Five things that I always have with me:
1. Wallet
2. key-on-necklace
3. cell phone
4. pocket knife
5. my heart

Five things I will always and forever hate//dislike:
1. cheese
2. liars
3. chewing with your mouth open
4. bad drivers
5. jason beland

Anyhow. so i started work today. Woke up at 3:45am to get to work. i'm tired. It's only 9:45pm and i'm falling asleep. This is crazy stuff. i can see now that this job is going to change my sleep patterns and socialization intensely. But it's not a bad job, so i'm happy with it.

It's been a really fun past few days. But i'm too tired to type them all out. So here's a quick rundown. Seeing Kate, Megan, Chris Donovan. Armor For Sleep in Boston. Party at Lauren's. Chilling with Amanda.

i can't wait to move back into school. i heard a rumor that ROC is actually gonna happen... who knows?

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 04:32:27 GMT

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?!?~?~?!??~!@#!@

Strawberries closed?!?! If this is true i'm out on my ass for a job when i get back to school. and i'm gonig to cry. goddamn.

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 03:10:18 GMT

ahhhhhh fuck you stomach. Reject me, will you? fuckin' hell. i feel bad for calling Amanda while i was DDRing. it was really rude of me and totally not respectful. i had stuff i wanted to tell her, too. Grr. Well at least the DDR was fun. Chris sweat his balls off and it amused me. But for some reason, i feel like shit. GG all. fuck this.

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 07:39:01 GMT

So i've had the best birthday in a long time this weekend. Amanda surprised me Friday night by stopping by after she got out of work and spent the night. My b-day was Saturday and i had a small BBQ where a lot of people showed up and i was happy. Connor, Lauren, Chris Cutting, Chris Donovan, Annette, Nina, Branton, Ashley, Ben, Rachael, and Amanda came and ate some food. I was really happy that most of my UMD friends showed up. After food some of us travelled to the Charlie Horse for some DDR where Chris Cartier and Alex showed up. After that came Zack's party. That consisted of drinking a lot and some stuff... getting stuck in a treehouse... scandal... humor... and other stuff i can't remember that well but was still fun.

Today i sat and watched tv and played WoW. i hit level 60 finally. Yeah. stuff.

i start working August 8th. woot.

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 16:58:39 GMT

BlackHartRomance: august 18th free summer concert series for WBRU at station park in Providence Finch, RX Bandits, and Zox tickets are only $5.95!!!!!!!!!!!1

i think i spooged in my pants a little when i got this message. i'm SO going to that.

BBQ and Zack's party tomorrow. Am i pumped? ......a little bit, yeah.

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 07:46:33 GMT

CONTINUE SCROLLING DOWN YOUR FRIENDS PAGE TO FIND MY ENTRY. AND THEN ENJOY IT.

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 07:45:10 GMT

...oh i forgot to mention. Someday it is my goal to be humming a tune a a part of a trio, and when i do my whistle solo, i spontaneously burst into flame. But we all finish the song while i'm on fire.

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 07:35:18 GMT

my cat enjoys being attacked by a blanket, i think. So i've been doing that to her for a while now. i've realized what my summer nights are going to consist of for the remainder of this vacation. i'm gonna socialize until people leave my house. Then play World of Warcraft until probably at least 3am every day. i think i'm gonna give up on waking up at reasonable times cuz i've pretty much given up on trying to find a job. When i've applied at pretty much every place in the surrounding area and got nothing back but a few interviews followd up by nothing, i start to lose my effort. What a summer... i can't wait until i get back to school.

On the plus side, i went to Massasoit State Park today with Amanda and we hiked around it all afternoon. i did enjoy that very much. Then we got ice cream and cam back and she took off. That was my day.

.... i just read everything i typed and it didn't make a lot of sense to me. I think i'm tired. i think i'm gonna go to bed. i think i'm gonna wake up tomorrow sometime after 12pm. And i think i'll do nothing useful all day tomorrow. i'm full of optimismm wooo.

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 04:08:03 GMT

STOLEN FROM MEGAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ten REALLY RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME
1. i grind my teeth
2. when i was in 6th grade, i failed music class. and was proud about it, too.
3. All my grade school teachers said i had servere ADHD.
4. i have a bone condition called "pesexcavation" which gives me an alien in my chest
5. 4 dogs, 2 cats, 1 bird, 3 rabbits, 2 rats, 1 gerbil, 1 iguana, and a bat have died in my house.
6. i've commited grand arson.
7. i've been knocked unconscious in a backyard wrestling match.
8. i was once a theater geek.
9. i didn't break 100lbs until i was 13.
10. i played the flute for about 2 months in 4th grade.

9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART
1. open-mindedness
2. be a talker
3. be argumentative
4. sarcasm helps out
5. love music
6. have pretty eyes
7. take care of your hair and teeth
8. be able to deal with my mean nature
9. FOOD

8 THINGS I CARRY/WEAR EVERYDAY
1. cell phone
2. license
3. wear my contacts
4. wear my pink, studded belt
5. wear shoes
6. wear pants
7. wear my necklace with the key on it
8. my hair

7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME
1. chewing with your mouth open
2. repeating yourself over and over
3. getting hit in the head
4. my own arrogance
5. razor-burn
6. being too lazy to type real words online. (ex. "b4" "2nite" "u" "lol")
7. jealousy. especially my own.

6 PLACES I'VE VISITED OR INTEND TO
1. visited Canada
2. visited Florida
3. visited Bahamas
4. intend to visit Europe
5. intend to visit Australia
6. intend to visit Japan

5 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. get married and have a family
2. pay my parents back for all they've done for me
3. do a mom (even if it's the mom of my own kids)
4. truly excel at something, anything.
5. finally figure myself out.

4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF
1. water.
2. going deaf.
3. being responsible for the misfortune of someone i care about.
4. being alone.

3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY
1. play World of Warcraft
2. eat.
3. wish i had a job or money.

2 THINGS I'M TRYING 'NOT' TO DO NOW
1. get depressed
2. be unemployed.

1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW
1. my love.

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 06:06:55 GMT

So yeah, Amanda and i went to visit Connor on his birthday and it was one hell of a messed up drive to get to his house. Twice as messed up going back. But fun in between. Saw a funny-ass slideshow of Connor's childhood. He was embarassed and i was amused. We played a little DDR and watched a badass anmie called Elven Lied. i want to have sex with that anime.

Today was a just great day. Amanda had spent the night and we chilled today. Watched some TV and napped on my trampoline. Yes, that's right. We napped on my trampoline cuz it was so nice out. While we were sleeping i drooled all over her shoulder. Like... soaked it. Funny stuff. She left later on and i mowed my yard and my neighbor's yard cuz she's old and can't do it.

And i'm finally ready to accept just how much you mean to me. It's love.

P.S.- My birthday is on the 23rd (Saturday) and i'm having a BBQ that day in... celebration... of my b-day. There will be massive amounts of dead animals being grilled to our feeding desire. (and maybe even that fake meat/soy/vege-whatever food if you ask for it.) So yeah, if you wanna come just send me a message or call me 508-369-6140. It's from around 1-2pm until around 11-midnight. And with that said, bye.

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 05:47:44 GMT

I've waged a war in my own head. It's been long and destructive but i'm finally done. And i'm happy to say i like where i stand now. The casualties of war are painful and will always follow me. But i can truly know that i've made the proper decision. Maybe i'll sleep happier from now on...

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 06:17:37 GMT

I FUCKING HATE YOU BUBBLE BOBBLE 2. YOU ARE THE MOST RIGGED-ASS-SON-OF-A-BITCH I'VE EVER MET YOU COCKSUCKING, DONKEY TRANSVESTITE HOOKER! TWO AND A HALF HOURS OF WASTED TIME ONLY TO GET TO LEVEL 69 I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL YOU MOTHERFUCKER!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 00:21:14 GMT

So it works like this... vacation to the Bahamas was pretty eye-opening. Hey everyone, DON'T GO THERE. The Bahamas are nothing more than a giant Brockton with beaches on it. The place is hardly vacation worthy. Never-the-less i still had a pretty good time. If you want to know any details or whatever, you'll have to ask me in person since i'm far too lazy to type it all out. On the plus side, i finisehd reading Hitchhiker's Guide (so you can have it to read, Jenna.) And maybe Bob might even get it back someday. Also, i've started running so i can actually get into shape. That, and it would help a bit in my DDRing. Yeah, i know i'm lame. Get over it, heh. As for a job, still none. i'm a lost cause and i know it.

On another note, i shattered my old drinking record of 7 beers in a night, to 12. And i regretted it. i blacked out and woke up in Emily's living room in PJ pants with my shorts soaked from falling in the pool and a lot of confusion and a major hangover. This hangover lasted a good 24 hours. i am NEVER drinking that much again. But the party was quite fun anyways.

i'm made of nothing but time. i need stuff to do. It's rained all day, so i couldn't run. So i cleaned, did more useless job applications, and played World of Warcraft.

Music is my life.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 07:53:19 GMT

Goodbye, cruel livejournal. For the next seven days, i am totally free from your grip and addictive tendencies. i will know nothing of what everyone else is doing, and it will drive me crazy. But when i return to you, i will know the other side and will be that much closer to becoming free of your cold, life-stealing claws. I WILL WIN!

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 21:07:20 GMT

Annette tagged me. So i'm it. So i'll do this i suppose.
Tagging:
Chris ("db" chris)
Amanda
EON

Directions: List 10 celebrities you think are attractive.

1. Gwen Stefani
2. Lindsay Lohan (BEFORE she went anerexic and blonde)
3. Maria Sharapova
4. Johnny Depp
5. Kirsten Dunst
6. Kira Knightly
7. Natalie Portman
8. Julia Styles
9. Jessica Alba
10. Lyn-Z (from MSI)

Done and done...and i don't know why i did it.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 06:54:19 GMT

yeah so way to go people who leave me messages when i specifically say DO NOT LEAVE MESSAGES. Shows that people really do try to be ignorant and "rage against the machine." I don't get why it's that important to do the EXACT FUCKING OPPOSITE of what is asked of you. Whatever. It's just one of those mysteries of human nature. Might as well not dwell on it.

In other news....

For those of you who don't know, i'm going on vacation Saturday (the 25th) and i'll be gone until July 3rd or so. It's a "vacation" for the family. i don't think i really need a vacation from my nothing, but i guess just a change of pace in general is welcome.

...you know i had a lot more to type and i know what i want to type, but it just doesn't seem worth it anymore. i think i'm gonna go to bed instead.

Happy Hunting.

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 17:05:31 GMT

oh hell yeah!!

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 05:41:13 GMT

you know what pisses me off wiiiicked bad? being blown off.

...yeah. Just a note for future reference.